my inner astronaut (triptych)

1

my inner astronaut

left the old city,

earthly leaving his city,

I was proud and naive and glad.

seemed forever young.

feeling milky hunger,

being as hard as a hammer,

full of unbridled joy,

screaming beside herself at the top of her voice,

ready for the oncoming - into the pool,

a cavity fell out in the universe.

2

it turned out:
cavity of the universe

not empty at all.

shelves, windows, doors, walls

missing for a reason.

space has not only a shade,

and all the colors in full:

crimson running through the veins.

zircon, shining like metal.

bronze, like arena sand

and white - whiter than any canvas.

astronaut

closed his eyes

squinted

and counted to one hundred.

then up to two hundred.

and then he got tired.

3

my inner

astronaut

kissed the moon.

singed my lips

cold ice.

naked,

burned his lips with fire

kissing the sun.

risking yourself.

I swear

he saw the war

light with darkness.

saw the constellations

sea.

he conquered

the whole galaxy

half of the universe

and crooked and askew,

both constantly and inertly,

both prism and cone,

predators and strangers

army of darkness

took the knives,

won.

I didn't even catch a cold.

everything - without blasters

and without compasses.

but my inner

long time cosmonaut

got lost

in your microcosm.

Illustrations: Tom Colbie Art