The days of the agitator

Elena Gerasimova, 51 years old

Muscovite, lives in Golyanov. By education, a physicist. She worked at the school as a teacher of physics-mathematics, at the Far Eastern Filwed Metallurgical Plant in Komsomolsk-on-Amur, at the Department of Air Defense at the Moscow Academy named after Frunze, an accountant at the bank, chief manager in a travel company and a year on Sri Lanka. Now temporarily without work.

The last time I was interested in politics after Nord-Ost, when the Gusinsky channel was dispersed for the coverage of this story on NTV and I went to Ostankino to support them. Once I watched only federal channels, but I did not read all these blogs-I, as a man of the older generation, entered the phrase alone into a stupor. My son is 30 years old, he is an artist of ballet. We have a very good relationship, and he taught me how to use all this, advised interesting blogs.

When the rallies began, it became interesting to me why and who these people go for. And who is a bulk. And then I read his blog and realized that this person is just a warrior. He is a single fighter. One challenged the authorities. And I caught him terribly for this. He inspired me not as a politician, but as a person. And this person inspired me with a personal example that I have been working for him from morning to evening for free from morning to evening. And I don’t care what to do for him - to distribute newspapers in the subway or agitation in a cube.

Before that, I have never been a volunteer. And at first, of course, I was scared. I am generally suspicious, with various intelligent doubts. Then, I'm not 25 years old. But I said to myself: “Why is it embarrassed with shameful timidity? Why is it not bright bold pride? " I said to myself and went. I came to the headquarters, they accepted me, explained everything, asked what I want to do. I still did not know what I wanted to do, so I just went to the headquarters and began to collect packages with banners. So it began.

People almost always look at the agitator with suspicion, no matter what a wide smile you approached them. Naturally, there is internal rejection, almost always. But, as they say, you need to meet your fears. When you talk with strangers, you overcome this fear, you get out of the cocoon. If you treat people well, they also treat you well. And you understand that others are in order, and you are in order, and the world is in order. It is very interesting to talk to people. Everyone talks about his vision of life. All human problems are the same for everyone, and it is interesting how people set them out. But it is still necessary to overcome fear every time.

When you distribute newspapers in the subway, you have very little time for communication. But even then you must behave sincerely, so that you have to go from the inside some impulse to help people understand the situation. If people watch only federal channels, they are not to blame that they have a certain opinion. They are simply not to blame. And how to explain something to them in the seconds that you go through the car? And how do they distribute newspapers to cause not rejection, but at least curiosity? This is an interesting task to work on yourself.

I come to the headquarters at 11 am and I am interested in where the assistants are needed. As long as I have no work, I, in principle, is ready to help at any time and anywhere. And I do it every day. They tell me where to go, and I am tuning up internally that everything is fine-I’m in my favorite city, the weather is beautiful, I go to do good things, now I will see many different people and, perhaps, I will help someone. I can’t tell anyone that I am a misanthrope by nature and read Schopenhauer and Sartre. When I am going to the headquarters, my ears are “divine comedy” Dante with such terrible music. It inspires and soothes me.

I get a feeling of satisfaction from the work that I did for a pleasant person for a good, correct business. The unpleasant is terrible fatigue, because I am on my feet from morning to night. Both physical and psychological-communicating with each person, allowing him already in some kind of zone, you share something and give something. And people are different.

Many of our people do not behave quite adequately. One person with whom my views on the polls did not coincide did not seem to want me to beat me. He threatened, cursed, said that it would be “very bad” to me. People, do not be evil, tedious, old and pessimistic!