In state paws

A graduate of the Nizhnelomsky boarding house for children with physical disabilities Olga Sklymina through the “let them say” program found her mother, but did not have time to live in a new family. Andrey Loshak talks about Olga and the fate of other graduates of the boarding house

At seven in the morning in Michurinsk, it barely dawned. A bust of the famous breeder is visible through the dank fog. Crows spin over his hat with a crooked. Natasha and Vitaly meet me on the platform, put me in an old "ten" and take me to their home.

“Yesterday in the morning they took it to Penza and already brought it in the evening,” Natasha says from the back seat.

- yourself?

- Well, what is it here? The coffin was taken by children-ten meters long. Yesterday, the godmother from Tambov arrived, Aunt Tamara. I read prayers, I put us on my knees 40 times in front of a coffin. And I wouldn’t get up with my knees at all, but Tamara Aunt said that it wasn’t supposed to be.

Olga Sklyamina's funeral : Andrey Loshak

We go into a solid wooden house. In the living room, I immediately see Olya - death at 27 years old changes the features of the face, except that the expression is unusually strict. In life, she almost always smiled. An old woman sits near the coffin and reads prayers. Natasha shows me a room of Olya with two well -fed teddy bears in the head of the bed. “Everything has already been prepared in advance, she had to come for the New Year. The first family New Year, ”says Natasha, sobs and leaves for the commemoration. I sit down on the couch and under the measuring murmur of memorial prayers coming from behind the wall, I slowly fall into a dream. More than three hours left before the funeral service.

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I met Olya in 2006, when I arrived to shoot a report to the Nizhnelomo boarding school for children with disabilities. She was 18 at that moment, and for two years she should move to the nursing home, but the leadership of the boarding school allowed her to linger longer than was allowed according to the instructions. So it was with the house of the baby in Tambov - instead of the laid for four years, she was kept there up to eight. Olya was loved by everyone who knew her. Otherwise, it was impossible - the thirst for life in this small crippled body was contagious.

In the boarding school, she was in the center of all movements and parties. On her four -wheeled board, nicknamed “Boomer”, she rushed at the speed of a rocket from one end of a two -story building to another and managed to be the first everywhere. Sashka will decide, nicknamed Batec, hold “worship”, she is already at the entrance to the house church. Sveta will gather secretly with Serega on a black staircase with beer and cigarettes - and she is with them. The elevator at that time often did not work in the building, and most children in strollers were spent on the second floor where the chambers were located. In addition to Olga,-she flocked down the stairs and furiously, she leaned on her hands, rose upstairs, dragging a “boomer” behind her.

It is not surprising that she became one of the main characters of the film and herself actively participated in his filming. Unable to stay in the boarding school after the end, I asked Olya to shoot night gatherings of girls on a regular manual camera. Personnel, where they dream of a wedding and singing the Linda song “Run” in a half -whisper, turned out to be probably the most piercing in the film .

Olga Sklymina in the film by Andrei Loshak “Children of the Corridors”, the program “Profession-RePER”, NTV, 2006

When a person rejoices in life, whose fraction has fallen so many tests from birth, their own problems begin to seem ridiculous blessed. This was an important therapeutic impact of Olga on the world. In Penza, Olya was nourished by another devout woman - Vera Petrovna. She told how one day the relics of Nikolai the Wonderworker were brought to the city. A huge queue lined up to bow to the relics, in which Vera Petrovna and Olya stood. “The faces of people in the line are boring, not gloomy, but some ordinary. And Olenka is directly glowing. The father passed by. I saw Olya and said: “Look how rejoices! Right the sun is in a stroller. And you take an example.”

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Dima Sayapin in Andrei Loshak's film “Children of the Corridors”, the program “Profession-RePER”, NTV, 2006

Then, in 2006, we nevertheless went to Olya with Olya to the Serdo House of Veterans, the prospect of getting into which the gloomy cloud hung over her future. There I met several graduates of the boarding school, in my 18-20 living lives among the elderly and cripples. Dima Sayapin was the best student at school. He liked the right, he really wanted to continue his education, but because of the strongest form of cerebral palsy he was not taken anywhere, sending him “to write off” to the nursing home. When he began to answer questions - a small, twisted man with smart eyes - I was amazed at his typically intellectual manner to speak and reason, it is not clear where the boy who grew up in the boarding school was not clear.

I often ask myself: why do I live? Unfortunately, I have no answer to this question Twisting this quote “Once the state cannot help me, then, unfortunately, I can’t and even more so in my state,” Dima logically explained. - I would really like to be useful to society, but the state did not give me this chance. Now my hopes are broken. I often ask myself: why do I live? Unfortunately, I have no answer to this question. ”

Shakespearean in the intensity of tragedy Dimka’s monologue crashed into my memory. It was his words that sounded in my report that became merciless “J'accuse!” in relation to the indifference of the state. A year later, Olya told me that Dimka had gone crazy. “He sat so quiet and suddenly began to talk with the TV, put the discs to bed, said that they would not go to linoleum because it hurt him.” Dimka was sent to write off according to the stage further - to the neuropsychiatric boarding school in Mokshan. This year, Olga informed me that Dima had died.

Renat Fayzulin in the film by Andrei Loshak “Children of the Corridors”, program “Profession-RePER”, NTV, 2006

Another young resident of the nursing home, who has become the hero of the film, is a renat, a cheerful, mobile guy, against the rest of the rest - almost healthy, which did not prevent his parents from abandoning him, and twice. There was a practice in the boarding school - at the end of the school year, to write to the mothers of graduates of the letter with a proposal to take them home again. Renata’s parents suddenly took the boy and put them under the castle, they were afraid that the neighbors would see. Renat was not offended by this, on the contrary, they climbed out of the skin to like it. He cleaned, washed, washed and even tried to cook. But the efforts of Cinderella did not help - a month later he was still sent home. We then found the mother, she was the director of the school and took advanced training courses in Ufa. An ordinary woman, there is nothing villainous in the person. Then we had a remarkable conversation with her:

- Why did you refuse the child?

- You see, it is generally accepted that such children are born only in the marginal segments of the population. Drums, drug addicts. We were shy. They were afraid that others would think badly about us ...

- Do you care what others think, is your son?

- No, how can it all the same. After all, Lenin said that it was impossible to live in society and be free from society.

I really wanted to act as Nemesis and show its physiognomy throughout the country. Then, most likely, the career of this big teacher would be covered by a copper basin, but I restrained myself and asked the editor to “spill” her face. Renat still lives in the house of veterans.

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Vladimir Putin and Svetlana Konovalova at the ceremony of presenting state awards to athletes of the Paralympic team of Russia. Photo: Mikhail Klimentyev/TASS

Of course, not all heroes of the film Fate formed so sadly. Sveta Konovalova seemed to me the most missing soul - she smoked, drank, walked classes. But it was she who is now - the real pride of the boarding school, the skier, biathlete, twice the gold medalist of the Winter Paralympics in Sochi, Putin presented her with awards, the state gave the white Mercedes and the apartment in Moscow. Films are shot about her, in VKontakte she has a fan group . The news of the death of Olga found Svetka in Doha, where some regular international competitions are held. In the boarding school, they were best friends, even slept, holding hands. Having become the famous athlete, Svetka did not “starve”, continued to come to her friend to visit, constantly talked with her in VKontakte. “My little and sweet button,” she wrote on her wall with a bunch of errors, hearts and kisses. “I will never forget you.” Thank you for the time we spent together. ” When I asked Svetka in VKontakte about plans, she answered briefly: “Give birth to a child. So far it seems to be everything :) "

Sasha Shulchev in the boarding school was in the image of a damned poet. He wore black, wrote gloomy poems and imagined himself with a ghoth, which, however, did not prevent him from fantastically dancing the lower break (he could not dance the upper because of the lack of legs). A few months before the sixteenth birthday, the American family adopted him - in those years, only Americans were adopted from Nizhny Lomov. In the states of Sasha, they performed a complex operation, and now he goes on prostheses, like an ordinary person. He graduated from Texas University in Austin with a degree in Politicalology and entered Master's Degree to Boston University to study the right. At the moment, he paused between two formations and temporarily teaches the Russian language to the children of billionaires at the Phillips Academy (the very one where both Bush studied). He has a girlfriend, beautiful, healthy and very smart. “She is smarter than 20 examples. Sometimes you need to be able to be the second, ”Sasha philosophically remarks. The most amazing thing is that he did not forget the language and did not tear with Russia, often travels here, happens in Nizhny Lomov and even tries to fight for the rights of Russian disabled children. In December 2012, Sasha wrote a letter to Putin not to accept the “Law of Dima Yakovlev”. The president left this letter unanswered.

Sasha Shulcheva is now the name of Alex d'Jamoos photo: https://www.facebook.com

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In the life of Olya, after our film, a ray of hope also dawned, but as it was disgraced and went out. Apparently, in a fit of noble feelings, Olga and two other graduates took a well -known fashion designer to her Moscow, whose name, perhaps, from false Christian mercy, I will not mention here. The guys were settled on the top floor of a luxurious mansion on Nikitskaya, where they worked as tailors from morning to night-they carefully sewed, cut, and pronounced. The idea with labor therapy was excellent and mutually beneficial in the future, but the fashion designer did not have enough patience for a long time,-a few months later the Grand Dama sent the guys back to Lower Lomov. “Are you offended? Do you want me to write something about her? " I asked Olga then. “No, no, it’s normal, just some kind of bustling,” Olya answered me.

Olga page in FB photo: https://www.facebook.com

I must say that the “sun in the stroller” was still torn off. She was not allowed to indulge in vices, but she lived on the principle of "any kipes except the hunger strike." Drinking did not drink, but she refused to observe a diet and a sparing lifestyle. “We live once” - Olya's favorite words. About five years ago, looking at the successes of Svetka's friend in Paralympic sports, Olga took up heavy athletics and even managed to get some kind of category. What her coach thought, and whether he thought at all is unknown, but of course, it was impossible to pull the bar with her pathologies and one kidney. When she started a Facebook page, I was struck by a gloomy picture with a nightmare monster, which she put as a cover. Also, the horror films that she adored did not fit at all with her eternal smile. Now I understand that Olya did not know well, and did not try to find out closer, completely satisfied with the role of "ambulance."

Olga did everything possible so as not to get into the elderly house, but her strength was not enough. She entered the Mikhailovsky boarding school for people with disabilities for accounting courses. A year later, due to endless diseases, she was forced to stop her studies. First, intestinal obstruction, operation, then renal failure and sentence: lifelong hemodialysis three times a week. All cut, with hands from injections, it remained an unbending optimist. When I asked her on Facebook, how were it, it was unchanged: “Normally!”, And then I found out from Renat that the day before she was inserted into the collarbone, because there was nowhere to insert him more. Olya transferred to Penza from the Serdobo House of Veterans, where many graduates of the boarding school lived - there was no apparatus for dialysis in Serdobsk. In the Penza House of the elderly, Olya was surrounded by unfamiliar old people - this was another blow to her optimism. "How are you?" "Fine! Only the smell is tired of this old woman. ” The fact that everything is not very normal, I understood, at the intended requests to send ampoules with iron - hemoglobin with long -term dialysis is critically decreasing, and with it the level of iron. There was no ampoule for intravenous injections in the Penza hospital.

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Around the same time, that is, a year and a half ago, Olya wanted to find her biological mother. Wrote to the editors in “Let them talk”, and they unexpectedly quickly found her. The announcement of the program “The Long Road to Mom” sounded like this: “What awaits Olga, whom the mother at birth considered inferior? Great joy or great disappointment? And will she be able to break out of the cage of state life and find a full -fledged family? ” As a team of support, they called me and Svetka Konovalov. The meeting went under applause, screaming and hooting of the extras, but this is probably not the most terrible reckoning for voluntary separation from her daughter. Natasha sobbed, Olya kept restrainedly and distant, as if showing: if you are claiming the title of “mother” again, you will have to prove it.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1ktfxg_c2tk

Natasha, Olga's mother, pours tea in the kitchen. She has already prepared kuta, pancakes and everything that relies on the commemoration, and can now talk a little with me. We have about half an hour before the priest of the priest in order to recall the last 27 years of life.

“Doctors convinced me that she would die. Congenital heart disease. I am a young durech, 18 years old, no cola, no yard, the daughter -in -law still says: where are you? Will not survive. I saw her just a little bit, in diapers, but I did not understand anything. Only some kind of look is bad. And for some reason she did not cry at all. Everything is yelling, and she is silent. I say a daughter-in-law: Listen, well, it seems nothing ... But that: bad, frozen, do not even think. Well, I left there. And she never remembered her more until they called from television. ”

In the “let them say” program, Natasha said a little different things: she seemed to say to her in the hospital that the girl had already died, so she forgot to think about her. In fact, she rather convinced herself of this, replaced the fact of the fact of the birth of a child from memory, as some kind of nightmarish event is supplanted from the memory. Protective reaction, classic psychoanalysis. Then the usual life went, the father Olya quickly drank, the second husband appeared, from him - two completely healthy son (the youngest had already managed to fight in the Donbass), then the second husband drank, finally, 15 years ago, Natasha married for the third and last time Vitaly. She was finally lucky. A good, household man, rabbits and chinchillas breeding. When Natasha was tormented whether to accept the invitation “let them talk”, he thought and said what determined her choice: go, the second time you will not forgive yourself this.

Olya with mom photo: https://www.facebook.com

“I am offended by one: late she found me. I wish it was a little earlier when she herself was even stronger. ”

It was not possible to tear Olya “from the clutches of the state life” to the end. At first it was in the way that there was no dialysis department in Michurinsk, then it was opened, but here the eternal apartment question has already intervened. It turned out that the house, in which Natasha and Vitaly lived, formally belongs to his adult son, and he, together with his wife, against the fact that Olga was constantly there. They motivated this by the fact that if, do not bring God, something will happen to the Father, where will they go to this miserable? Her mother with his sons is enough for him. It was never allowed to prescribe Olya in the house, and without this it was impossible to do free dialysis. Finally, the residence permit managed to design from relatives in the village neighboring Michurinsky, but the sediment, as they say, remained. The tactful and proud Olya, more often afraid of becoming a burden in the world, began to go to parents less often. The last time I had in the summer, spent two months. She felt noticeably worse, lost weight and “pissed”, as Vitaly said. Understanding what everything is going on, Natasha suggested that the daughters transplant her kidney, but the doctors said that in the case of Olga, transplantation was impossible - the girl simply would not undergo surgery.

Olga Sklyamina's funeral : Andrey Loshak

“We got closer with her. Went to bed together, she was to me: “Mom, scratch your back.” She scratched her back, and she told me everything, told me. About his childhood is stormy. How they drank moonshine and engaged in other nonsense. So she tried everything. Only the only thing ... "Mom, I want a baby." I am to her: “My child, you yourself are a baby.”

A young priest was a burden by Olya. Above the coffin, tears, including the same sweet couple, did not allow Olya to register in her house. Your deeds are wonderful, Lord! When they were already returning from the cemetery, I heard Olga’s godfather, Aunt Tamara, spoke with another old woman: “She was a godly. Virgin ... - Yes, an angel. He looks at us now on top and smiles. ”

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