Not who it seems

At home he is Sergey, on the street - Lydia. Lydia-Sergea lives in Black Wigwam from Twin Pixes, studies birds and eats them

The town of Twin Peaks is not in the north-west of Washington, next to the Canadian border, but in the south of Moscow, on the border with Shcherbin. David Lynch’s universe fit in one of the summer cottages in a narrow three -story building with a sharp roof. The owner, Lydia, recreated the interiors of the Great Nern in the house with his own hands. On the ground floor, the kitchen - the wall is decorated with painting, as in the Benjamin Horn’s office, on the second - bedrooms with beds, as in the number of agent Dale Cooper. Some elements of the interior were invented, for example, the refrigerator in the kitchen is hiding behind a wooden door with the image of harmonbia. On the third floor of the house there is a red room-red curtains, black and white floor, home-made chairs, a statue of Venus. Welcome to the Black Vigva.

In the red room, Lydia meets guests. It looks impeccable - slender, with an ideal posture, smoothly combed dark hair, accessories with taste is selected for a patterned blouse and a long flowing black skirt. An attentive look, a pleasant melodic voice. You cannot determine age by eye. Later I will find out that she is 42 years old. By profession, Lydia is an ornithologist, she distinguishes between birds in the voice and, it seems, understands what they are singing about. For a long time, Lydia worked as a teacher at the Department of Zoology, then went to a company that develops bioacoustic equipment: birds of birds at metro stations, retail chains and airports.

Four years ago, Lydia moved from a city apartment to the country, where she spent all her childhood in order to fulfill a dream - to build a house in the style of "Twin Pixes". The series Lynch Lydia watched in the early 90s. At first I decided that it was some kind of nonsense, all through one crazy. “But in life, in fact, everything happens. We are just used to socialism, and Lynch showed us how everything is actually, ”Lydia explains.

Lydia poses with a scarecrow of the Himalayan monal (pheasant). A friend gave the carcass to her, and the scarecrow was taken by Lydia Photo: Maria Ionova-Gribin for TD

In the world of Twin Pix, it was most attracted to a combination of nature and mysticism.

“I decided to realize this world into reality. In part, reality begins in my fence - a forest. Of course, this is not Douglas of fir, but ordinary ate, but also very beautiful. And in general, the Twin Picks forest does not consist of firing alone, on many frames you can easily recognize the same Shcherbinka, ”says Lydia.

That is why she decided to remove her Twin Peaks in Shcherbinka. According to Lydia’s idea, the film is the music of the composer Angelo Badalamenti, who created the famous soundtrack for the Lynch series, and a video sequence shot in several locations - in the forest, on a sawmill, in the house. The shooting took about a year with breaks, the installation of a half -hour tape will begin soon. In the creation of the film as the operator, a friend of Lydia Zhanna and director Sasha Kulak, who helped to find the actors, participated. In addition, Sasha has been working on her film about Lydia for several years.

According to Sasha, Lydia seems to be this name not so long ago and, as a rule, unfamiliar people. Before that, others knew her as Sergey.

Sergey

“ I am a very simple personality, I have few functions in consciousness and behavior. Just study me, everything is like in the picture. Schematically, quite definitely, without halftones . ”

Lydia is a biegender, biologically she is a man named Sergey . Lydia calls her gender identity “phenomenon”, the nature of which is difficult to explain to her with a scientific language.

Lydia shows the movement of the wings of the frigate. She likes the elegance and grace of this bird, in imitation, she dresses in black. Even Lydia is close to the food “opportunism” of the frigate - he hunts little himself, he is a mushroom and a robber. Photo: Maria Ionova-Garbin for TD Lydia shows a ruined nest of a singing thrush. Judging by the shape of a split shell, the eggs were eaten by a predator photo: Maria Ionova-Gribin for TD

Sergei spent all his childhood at Dedushkina's cottage outside the city. He was passionate about two things - flights and nature, so he spent all the time in the forest, which began behind the fence of the cottage. He felt like his part, studied the inhabitants with interest. He was fascinated by everything that flies: insects, birds. Only planes flew above them. We flew often - the airport is not far. Once the boy begged his mother to take him there to see the planes near. They seemed to him a miracle. Once again looking at the plane flying over him, he decided that he would grow up and become a pilot.

Another miracle seemed to Seryozha women. Beautiful, elegant, bright. He wanted to be like that. To understand what it was - to be a woman, Seryozha tried on his mother’s outfits. Secretly, while she was not at home. Later, mother's wardrobe bored, so Seryozha took classmates in the locker room. At the same time, he began a transitional age with his natural physical changes. He later described this period as “painful”. Looking at himself in the mirror, Seryozha thought about the main question: "How to become a woman, retaining the opportunity to multiply?"

“ As a biologist, it was clear to me that reproduction - this is the meaning of life. Therefore, I had to invent such a concept as to eat a fish and not to prick with a bone. The concept was completely developed at the first courses of the institute: it was necessary to leave the innate sexual system efficient, but to process everything else as fully as possible. Similarly, I strive to use the advantages of both sexes . ”

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Due to the bad marks in algebra and physics, Sergey failed to enter the aviation institute. But he easily entered the faculty of zoology. For the first time he had close friends at the university - two young people whom he told about his idea to combine two sexes in himself.

“ If we open, then those who normally react. I am quite a bold person, it is rare for me to be scared, so it was not difficult to say openly about my interests . ”

And if friends accepted his idea, then his parents arranged a boycott to him. Studying at the first courses of the university, but still living with his father and mother, Sergey stopped hiding his female identity from them. Nobody began to arrange a scandal or somehow discuss it-his parents simply ignored his son when he put on dresses, skirts and painted his lips.

“ They will never understand me, and why, for me it is not an end in itself. The most important thing is that strangers perceive me as I want. So that my sexual partners perceive me the way I want . ”

The first partner of Sergei, a classmate Tanya, who studied crop production, accepted his biegenterity. Their union lasted about five years.

Lydia Photo: Maria Ionova-Gribin for TD

“ We were not tuned to the fact that we would live together. We wanted to multiply, and we remained together exactly as much as it was necessary. We managed to withstand five years: three years in marriage and two after the divorce . ”

Tanya gave birth to Sergei son Sasha.

Transition

After graduating from the university, Sergey stayed at the department and worked there for 13 years. He came to classes in a suit, because his body was still masculine. By 2005, Sergey managed to accumulate money for operations. ElectroePilation, rhinoplasty, blepharoplasty, resection of the 11th and 12 pairs of ribs and the formation of a new border of hair growth on the head-all these procedures were done for several years. Sergei says that he was lucky with the initial proportions of the body and skull, which are already very feminine. Sergey refused to put the breast implants from the proposal of the surgeon, considering that this is superfluous.

The teachers, watching the appearance of the colleague, chuckled at him, considered it an eccentric.

“ Colleagues asked questions, but I answered:“ I like to look like this. ” A couple of times at the faculty parties he came to women's configuration. Others reacted normally. All this for the time being came off solely due to the fact that I was a valuable frame: my teaching skills, the number of my knowledge. The average person would not be forgiven for this . ”

The bedrooms in Lydia’s house are decorated as rooms at the Bolshaya North Hotel from the series Twin Pixes. And above the bed there is a gun, like the protagonist, on goat hooves (Lydia has a sports pneumatic rifle) photo: Maria Ionova-Garbin for TD Doll Donna Hayword from Twin Picks photo: Maria Ionova-Gribin for TD

Students treated the teacher differently. Those who came to engage in science respected him for phenomenal memory and deep knowledge. Those who came to sit on the back desk and get a diploma considered him an eccentric, frankly mocked.

However, the appearance of Sergei was not the only reason for discussing and condemning at work. In addition to teaching activities, he collaborated with the Department of Anatomy, was engaged in taxidermia. The meat of animals, the bodies of which entered the department and subsequently became exhibits of the biological museum, were sent to the refrigerator of Sergey.

“ I was a banner of the informal movement at the Academy. What was not said. And I eat screaming. Previously, carcasses of heated horses and pigs that came to me were very attractive to me. For years I have not had to go to the store. Well, imagine: a horse will die in which a living weight is 500 kilograms. All this I was not able to get away and hide in my refrigerator. But what succeeded was taken away. And then it fed me to the next horse or other cattle - calves, pigs, dogs that were given to the veterinarian. But the horses of this are all the most delicious and original animals . ”

Sergey did not prepare any exquisite dishes from his production, only heat treatment - frying or cooking. The most unusual of the animals that fell on the table to Sergey is a crocodile. But he did not really like him. Once, an anatomy department was brought to the just dead cheetah from the zoo, but it was not possible to try it, since the refrigerator was scored by another dog.

“ And who will condemn? What, is there food competition for a horse? Well, yes, this is not a very normal story, but everyone is used to it that you can expect anything from me. At least I do not eat anyone else . ”

Lydia in the garden near the house photo: Maria Ionova-Gribin for TD

However, the reason for dismissal from the university was not appearance, not food habits, but bureaucracy, says Lydia. The obligation to draw up endless reports, programs, instead of dealing with students.

“ At some point, I began to behave hard, called the head of a coward. After that, I was even more than a year as a composition of teachers, but I did not conduct classes. Then the employment contract is over . ”

After dismissal, Lydia lost her main power source. Now her diet is based on honey from her own apiary, milk from her own goats, berries from the forest. Lydia also eats birds, including pigeons. Once from a mountain ash picked up a bird flu.

Lydia

“While I was at the institute, I needed to remain Sergey, to walk in men's clothes that I hated. But my body was changing, and when they began to iculate me in men's clothing, it was a sign that it was time to change. After all the operations, I feel great. I can finally go out in the clothes in which I want to be . ”

She considers the frigate magnificent her totem bird. A large black bird with a powerful wingspan capable of flying without a break for several days in a row and sleep in flight. The frigate has no problems with food, he eats almost everything that he meets in his way: fish, crustaceans, jellyfish, eggs of chicks, young turtles, selects prey from other sea birds. So here Lydia and her totem bird are really similar - they eat only because they manage to get on their own. In appearance, Lydia also tries to copy this image.

Favorite place of childhood. From birth, Lydia spent a lot of time here : Maria Ionova-Garbin for TD And from the fourth grade I composed about this place of fairy tales photo: Maria Ionova-Garbin for TD

“ I perceive myself partly as a fairy -tale character. In my epic, there is a certain frigate werewolf. In the human version, nicknamed Lidia Mendos. Originally from Latin America. Accordingly, I try to pick up clothes . ”

She likes black color, bright accessories. Lydia has narrow hips and sharp knees, so she wears long free skirts. “It is necessary that everything be in harmony with the type of face in the ethnic side,” Lydia explains. She rarely buys clothes in stores, more often sews in an atelier. He prefers shoes with heels, she has a large collection of stilettos. Lydia assures that walking on stilettos is not at all difficult if you have good coordination.

Family

Three live in the house: Lydia, her wife Vasilisa and Lydia's mother. Vasilisa is a former student of Lydia. Despite the difference in the age of 12, they quickly got along, there were common interests, including Twin Peaks. In addition, Vasilisa easily accepted the female image of her partner. A relationship began between them, and they got married.

“ At the wedding, we arranged such a show! I really wanted to have something unusual, unlike the first wedding, which was traditional. For Vasilisa, they sewed the dress, as in the illustration of Vyacheslav Nazaruk to the “Malachite box” - Tatyana's dress, in which she came to Turchaninov. I had a pilot's shape . ”

According to Lydia, the Vasilisa family treats her well, but does not go into details about the relationship between them. She speaks only one thing about marriage - she suits her. In addition, Lydia has a scientific approach to everything, so she immediately indicated the purpose of marriage - the ability to get along together. The relationship between Lydia and Vasilisa is open, that is, they both allow romantic or sexual ties with other people. According to Lydia, only women attract her physically, but male attention and compliments give her pleasure.

Lydia Photo: Maria Ionova-Gribin for TD

The son of Lydia, 16-year-old Sasha, lives with his mother, but comes on vacation and weekend to his father. He is not fond of nature and aviation, he is interested in laws, he dreams of becoming a lawyer.

“ The son refers to my image neutral. He does not say anything special. In the house I wear indefinite or men's clothes, because it makes no sense to dress up for walking through the forest, catching birds or walking goats. Therefore, we will assume that I am a man in the house, and on the street there is a woman . ”

I ask Lydia how the son turns to her: “Mom” or “Dad”? She says dad. I clarify: and in the presence of other people, for example, on the street?

“ If we ended up on the street together, we probably would have come up with some legend about who I am to him. So far there was no such situation . ”

House

Lydia independently designed the house using the principles of aerodynamics, - aviation fascination came in handy. I thought out the heating system, insulated windows and walls. I made a screw staircase from the first to the second floor. When the house was ready, Lydia began the interior decoration, did everything herself: furniture, interior elements, decor. It took about four years.

“ But there is still a lot of work, this is far from all. I want to build a second house, arrange it in the style of “House by the road”, maybe make an office there, like Dr. Jacobi. I don’t know, really, is there enough strength . ”

In the second house, Lydia plans to make guest rooms where her friends, acquaintances or fans of Twin Pixes could stop.

Short film "Cond" about Lydia, director Sasha Kulak, 2014

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