Without color and smell

Lenya wants to learn to live in an invisible world. But does not want to learn to live without love

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For his beloved girl, Lenya prepared potatoes baked in wine, bought roses of the color of the sea wave, laid out a giant heart from tea candles in the corridor of a student dormitory and wrote poetry every morning. He always wore her handbag when they went to the subway to the institute, allowed her to warm her legs, throwing them onto the dashboard of the car, and even skipped the exam to dictate the correct answers to her in the micro -nurse.

Lenya and Anya met on a student bench. The Ryazan guy entered the Moscow university according to the results of the Cosmonautics 2008 scientific conference. There he presented his aviation-space project "Star-Cristal" and took first place. Since childhood, Lenya collected aircraft models, visited military parades, and built a rocket in the club’s club and, together with other space projects, collected many prizes at the Olympiads. Lenya loved his people, dreamed of becoming a military engineer and defending his homeland.

Leonid with his home -made rocket photo: Evgenia Zhulanova/Schschi for TD

Soon after meeting, the young people rented an apartment. Lenya managed to study, along with classmates to work on the launch of an institute satellite, work as a bank manager, and also to be the right hand of the dean and resolve the organizational issues of the course. While the young man earned housing and daily expenses, Anya completely devoted herself to his studies and with confident steps went to the cherished goal - a red diploma. Lenya was ready to fulfill any whim of his beloved. I bought her the latest new products of Apple, and he went with a simple Nokia. Over time, the money stopped grabbing. Lenya climbed into debt.

Once Anya said that she wanted to spend the New Year holidays in Sochi, where the Winter Olympic Games just held. Lenya could not stand it: "My joy, I work, somehow I study, if I spend money on Sochi, there will be nothing to pay for the apartment." But the girl still gathered her bag and left for the resort, and returned from there by another person.

Leonid in the classroom for working with a computer photo: Evgenia Zhulanova/Schschi for TD Leonid in a lesson with Eugenia on working with a computer photo: Evgenia Zhulanova/Schschi for TD

“It was as if replaced,” recalls Lenya. - She made comments for any reason. We quarreled in trifles, and in the end I said: "Enough."

Young people dispersed. Lenya's parting was worried. With study, problems began, at work everything went awry. The head also constantly split in pain. Once, after a trifling scandal, one of the common friends said: “Yes, Anya did the right thing that she threw you. You are, however, the insignificance. "

Soon, Leni had a smell disappeared. The guy felt like a lonely person in the world. Against the backdrop of loneliness, the absence of smells did not seem a serious problem. Lenya thought it was on the nervous ground. But once he woke up and noticed that the world was pretty faded. The next morning - even less brightness. “As if tinting by car every day became thicker and thicker,” Lenya explains. - And then I realized that I could not get behind the wheel and get to Ryazan. He called dad and said: "Come after me, I, in my opinion, blinded."

Leonid goes with Sergey to the store photo: Evgenia Zhulanova/Schschi for TD

Father did not believe his ears. And when he arrived, he saw a bunch of unexpected linen, dirty mugs and a son, who moved around the house to the touch. With shaking hands, the father collected Lenin things and took his son to Ryazan. There they began to walk around the doctors. At first, ophthalmologists did not understand what was the matter, they said that the guy’s eyes were healthy. And then they decided to do tomography. It turned out that the tumor the size of a fist slowly eats the frontal lobes of the brain of a 24-year-old guy. Lenya was immediately hospitalized. Anya called his mother and said that she would definitely call before the operation. Lenya was waiting. Before the operation, after the operation and during the operation, but it did not come.

Leonid on massage photo: Evgenia Zhulanova/Schschi for TD Elena helps Leonid install an application for listening to audiobooks. Elena on the knee shows what finger movements should be taken on the phone screen photo: Evgenia Zhulanova/Schschi for TD

The operation was appointed the day after the birthday of Leni. In nine hours, the doctors managed to remove only two -thirds of the tumor. The guy forgot many words, learned to walk again, remembered how to use the phone, and listened to Pushkin’s audiobooks all day. Soon the second operation was appointed. Lenya lost two and a half liters of blood. But it was possible to completely get rid of the tumor only the third time. Then Lenya created a new profile on VKontakte and began to add old friends there, mainly from a prenovert life.

At that moment, Lena seemed to be over. He was left without his beloved girl, excluding and working. And he was blind. But it was most offensive when the best friend joked about Lenya: "It seems that Sorinka fell into his eye." Lenya still remembers his mobile phone.

Leonid in the church photo: Evgenia Zhulanova/Schschi for TD

Lena could not release Anya, he really wanted to renew the relationship. Start a new life with old love. At first he called her to ask for forgiveness. And when he called a second time, he was to blame for everything. “She said:“ Enough friends to configure, so that they come out on me and remind you of you. As if the whole world had come down to you with a wedge. Yes, you shut up everything with your Lenya! I want to forget everything, I have my own life, ” - this is how Lenya recalls this conversation their conversation.

Leonid makes morning exercises photo: Evgenia Zhulanova/Schschi for TD Leonid in a guitar lesson photo: Evgenia Zhulanova/Schschi for TD

And Lenya has not seen her grandmother for several years. Parents decided to hide the disease of her beloved grandson from her - the old woman had serious health problems. When she felt very bad, Lenya went to her. I had to portray a sight. It was not easy to navigate in the space without a stick and hands and at the same time not to move with ants, to get into objects the first time and serve them to a grandmother, not rummaging around the table. It was necessary to completely control yourself. When my grandmother asked what a scar is on his head. I probably got a fight? Lenya replied: "Well, granny, so it happens, we are men."

After the next operation, the photographs returned. European professors told him that vision can be restored in Germany for 15 thousand euros, the opinions of Russian doctors were divided - no one wanted to take it. One fund first promised to help Lena, and then suddenly changed his mind. The guy had a persistent feeling that no one needs him.

Leonid during a break between classes of photo: Evgenia Zhulanova/Schschi for TD

“It happens that the soul is tearing to parts and hands drop. Everyone throws me, someone even sends a fuck. I knock on all the doors - and there is silence. No one wants to help, but I can’t even get anywhere on my own. And at home they still raise their voice at me: “It’s you to blame for everything. He brought himself to such a state. If I had not communicated with anyone, I would have felt normally. People study, make families, and everything is fine with them, but you have nothing. ” I myself am worried, and they also constantly remind me of this. I adore children. I really appreciate the family. I would really like to have a loved one nearby. And so, it happens, I heard all of this, I will go out onto the stairwell and think: Gori everything with blue fire. ”

Leonid in Braille's Language Lesson Photo: Evgenia Zhulanova/Schschi for TD Leonid in Braille's Language Lesson Photo: Evgenia Zhulanova/Schschi for TD

Then Lenya met the "House of the Blass" and realized that you could live. Even be happy. Even if your eyes and ears refuse. Many adults who have lost vision in adulthood fall here in a state of severe depression, they are tormented by suicidal thoughts. The house treats. Lenya here was taught to walk with a wand, read the brief, use sound programs on different technical devices. And most importantly - to believe in yourself again. He now knows for sure that he wants to help those who have fallen into trouble and feels the most lonely person in the world. As a child, Lenya dreamed of building missiles for the state, and now he offers the director of the “houses of deaf -blind” to introduce the lessons of technical creativity, so that, together with blind and deaf, to make models of missiles with their own hands and launch them into the sky. And do not see how they fly.

Lenya is afraid of life without eyes. It does not imagine how you can not see, but only hear and touch your children. He really wants to be cured. There is little hope for this, but in the "House of Blaglyuh" they say that you can be happy and without vision.

Leonid photo: Evgenia Zhulanova/Schschi for TD

“The greatest happiness in life is to love one person and live for him,” Lenya says. He still did not forget this girlfriend and still did not reconcile with blindness.

In the "House of Blindbluchery" Lenya cannot be cured. They cannot find him a loved one who should live. But in the "House of Blass" Lenya, they can teach to communicate with a loved one, walk with a loved one around the city and even work for the sake of a loved one. Only money is needed so that day after day special teachers teach people who have lost their eyesight live in an invisible world. Lenya and dozens of people like him. Any donation of yours will help the “house” help Lena and other wards. Especially if you sign a monthly donation, because such help is not fast. Sometimes you need months, sometimes years, so that a person accepts himself and adapts to an invisible world.