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Jesus sheep
Sveta has a special view of the world. He can be incomprehensible and strange, like the whole history of her life, but without these features of light it would not be an artist
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Once she walked past a broken stop, stopped, collected pieces of glass and glued a tree from them at home - "a symbol of growth of life, without evil a person cannot develop." Another time, a drawing teacher called her to the estate to draw sketches in the estate. They stood for two hours for the easels: while the teacher wrote the trees, Sveta sprinkled scarlet sails from the logo of the folder. And then she sat on a bench and admitted: she really wanted to talk to him about art, but was afraid to offend.
In her bedroom, which at the same time the workshop, the light ripped off a piece of wallpaper and directly on the concrete painted a long-haired guardian angel tall from a person-so that one could approach and talk to him. In a prominent place, a family suit, sewn in its sketch (from the front pocket of the jacket, sticks a piece of pork bone - “secrets of sin”, a red triangle - “sign of faith” is sewn on a dress with a cap). Sveta does not know his parents, but really wants to revive the story of a kind and someday convey the suit of his daughter. And she painted tomatoes with leaves similar to branched horns, and called the picture “The Goat tomatoes”: “Everyone considers Satan a bad creature, and even a goat, but this cannot cancel the fact that he has excellent tomatoes.”
Seven circles of hell
Sveta was born to create. But only in an apartment impregnated with alcohol on the outskirts of Moscow no one knew about this. And the appearance of the artist did not expect. Dad immediately disappeared somewhere, a mother, accustomed to carelessness, went into her herself and stopped noticing a child crawling on a dirty floor. “Thank God, they took me away from her,” recalls Sveta. So she got into the orphanage, and her mother in a psychiatric hospital.
The first distinct memory in the life of Sveta is the day when white tights, dress and brand new sandals were put on a seven -year -old girl, tied a huge bow on her hair to the waist, pushed a thick backpack with school supplies and put him on the bus. And Sveta came to hell. So she herself calls a correctional boarding school for the mentally retarded.
All the time after the work of the light, writes paintings in his apartment-master photo: Andrey Lyubimov for TD 
For a scholarship from a “big change”, light buys brushes and paints photo: Andrey Lyubimov for TD“First of all, the teacher took me by the neck and took me to the pantry, pulled off my clothes, took my backpack, put it on a chair and completely cut my hair. I was afraid to cry. If she did not like her gaze, she beat on the back of her head. I sat there for half a day, and then she returned, grabbed my neck and put it under cold water in the bathroom. The window was open, I was trembling. She threw me leaky clothes. And she led to the common platform. And there - all the bald. We turned to the right, we are waiting for the team, we went to the dining room. I tried not to make unnecessary movements so that I was not beaten. "
"All the years we studied one textbook, hid that we can read"Primary school teachers called the children “Russian fascist” and “devil”. Right in one of the rooms of the boarding school, she held several dozen chickens, whose eggs later sold in the market. She periodically said that she was going to the cinema with her children, but in fact she took them to her work warehouse to unload the boxes. During breakfast, half a boiled testicle approached and cut off from forever hungry children. When the guys behaved badly, she punished: she took off her clothes, put her classmates in a row and brought it into the corridor of the “guilty” - so that they laughed at him and mock in every way.
“We realized what we need to say as a fool. All the years we studied on the same textbook, hid that we can read. At the end of spring, the commission came and checked us, if someone gave out a good result, then he was transferred to another school. Our teachers were not interested in this: the more mentally retarded, the richer the financing. ”
One of the episodes of his boarding life calls the light of the Andreevsky hell. After the teacher took New Year's gifts from the children and hid them in the closet, someone found sweets and put each child four pieces under the pillow.
“In the morning, someone shouted:“ Santa Claus brought gifts! ” We woke up, put our hand under the pillow and felt for sweets there. How happy we were! And then we hear the voice: “Guys, faster, the devil goes!” I had to send all the sweets in my mouth and quickly chew them. For everyone, Lena Andreeva was fought, the teacher thought that she had stolen gifts. For several hours I mocked her: pulled by the hair, hit the wall, beat with a stick. Blood flowed across Andreeva's face, and we stood and were silent. Then the teacher was tired and left. We quickly dragged Lena into the bathroom, washed it, somehow closed the wounds, put on and laid it to bed. After many years, we learned that then not Lena, but Vaska, stole sweets. ”
Sveta saw her mother for the first time when she was deprived of parental rights. She had to come to the boarding school and sign the papers. “That day she was sober, normal, looked at me with empty eyes. I was in shock, I was waiting for at least some emotion from her. I then thought I was lucky: I looked like my father. ”
All the childhood of the world dreamed of one thing - to quickly leave the boarding school.
Resurrect and reborn
From the boarding school, the light was sent to the courses of the Malyar. For several years now she has been working in housing and communal services, paints porches and apartments to pensioners and disabled people. Sometimes you have to linger after work or work for free on the weekend - so that the authorities receive bonuses from the order. Sveta receives 20 thousand rubles a month. All the time you have to think about how to save. If you want potatoes with onions for dinner, then during a lunch break, you can only drink tea.
Once upon a time, about the Dnkelsnik brought the world to evening school. She wanted to finish school and get a certificate - her knowledge of basic subjects was at primary grades. Sveta began to study, but objects were given to her hard. Once, a history teacher Irina Ladygina in the lesson asked her to make a drawing on the topic, and when she saw the result, he realized that the author had “very original thinking and rare talent”. She led the light to the drawing teacher Mikhail Nikolaev in a “big change” and took the floor that he would teach the girl to draw, but would leave her identity.
"When an empty and destroyed child comes into a" great change ", they collect his soul in pieces"“Now I come home and jump into my world,” says Sveta. - There is no anger. In this world, I live, dance, play, yelling, feel like a child - more protected from the cruelty of our world. When an empty and destroyed child comes into a “big change”, they collect his soul in pieces. They see people through. They will never insult, treat as a person. They put knowledge in the orphan so that they have freedom, choice. ”
Sveta Kuznetsova knits threads with threads in his Mastern apartment 
Sveta Kuznetsova knits with threads a picture in his apartment-master photo: Andrey Lyubimov for TDOnce Sveta showed her paintings to colleagues at work. Women twisted a finger at the temple: "Do not even think that you are an artist, these are drawings of a sick person." Sveta was very worried. Like other boarding children , she acutely reacted to any criticism, depended on the opinions of others. A person without skin. Teachers from the "big change" still help to overcome this barrier to her. “I realized: it turns out that a lot depends on the school. In the “Great Change” your “I” is developed, but in ordinary schools - no, ”says Sveta.
In the boarding school, the light was sure that if a person has a family, then he must be happy. And when she began to walk around the apartments of her customers to paint the walls in them, she was horrified. “I look at families and see how many relatives relate to each other: cold, wildly , not humanly. People do not value those who are nearby, do not understand that at any moment they can lose them. ”
"I was a dead freak before meeting her"If individuality was destroyed in the boarding school, then in the “great change” they teach the light to strive for self -development . She realized that if she does not work on herself, then she would not achieve anything. “Happiness is short . Some are expensive socks or a new car, and for me to be a useful person. Just going to work and rejoice at household things is not interesting for me. This husk bounced off, they made me another person. I am a frantic, eagerly absorbing knowledge, bewildered person. I want to realize myself, but I still do not have enough strength. I feel responsible to the “big change” and dream of being useful to people who helped me develop. I really want to justify their investments. ”
In her bedroom, the light on the wall painted a long-haired guardian angel tall from a person-so that you can come up and talk with him photo: Andrey Lyubimov for TDOne of the works on which Sveta is now working is called the “Sheep of Jesus”: “We are lost souls,” explains Light. - Understand me correctly, but Irina Ladygin from the “big change” continues the mission of Jesus. I saw how she saved one girl, helped her find the meaning of life. For me, this is a holy cause. Personally, I was a dead freak before meeting her. ”
The “big change” pays the Light a scholarship, which she spends on paints, brushes and other art materials - because it is difficult to embody all the lamps of artistic plans for the salary of the state employee. The teachers of the Fund teach her to correctly express their thoughts , to master new artistic techniques and set their work. Not all graduates of orphanages can provide themselves, overcome difficulties and live on their own. And Sveta learned not only to earn a living, but also to set great creative goals. Next to her there are no loving parents who could substitute the shoulder in difficult times and help take the first professional steps, but there is a “big change”.
Help "big change" , and it will help the light. As well as many other orphans and graduates of boarding schools, who need the help of strangers, but caring people.
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