"While alive, I will carry it"

By the age of sixty, love lived several lives - one is heavier than the other. When the youngest daughter was born - a late and unexpected gift - another difficult life began. The fifteen -year -old Vita does not walk and does not see, they live in a dacha bought on credit, there is no money, there are not even firewood. But love is struggling to make the life of her daughter better

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The garden partnership is almost on the highway one and a half hours from Cheboksary. Around - nothing. A dirty road, dilapidated cottages, fences from a mixture of sticks and iron heights of old Soviet beds. Behind the gate, the Cat Almaz, beds with flowers and greenhouses with tomatoes and firewood - the poplar fell on the barn and I had to adapt one greenhouse under the logs. But for love, which is engaged in the garden, this is not a summer house, and even more so not a vacation. For her and her two daughters, this is the only housing, and the garden is almost the only food.

The eldest daughter Kristina works in ZhEK in the city of Kanash nearby, washing the porches. And in the depths of the small house lies the youngest, Vita. She is still fifteen, but she will never work - she has cerebral palsy, Vita does not walk and does not see.

The functional bed looks surreal in a tiny dark room next to the Russian stove. A beautiful, biblical appearance, a girl with long black hair and white skin looks even more inappropriate on this bed. The face is already girls, and the body is like a small child, in a children's T -shirt and in diapers.

But Vita is not the only trouble that happened with love. Holding on to the bed, love begins its story with the eldest daughter. When Vita was still very small, Christina fell from the balcony of the fifth floor. She then lived in Sochi with relatives, and Lyuba and Vita were in Chuvashia and found out about it on the phone. “When I heard about this from the doctor, my lip froze,” says love. - Then I found out that it was a microstroke. But she moved on her feet, on tablets. She grabbed Vita in an armful and went to Sochi to the hospital. For several months, Christina lay there - the spine is fragmented, the leg too. But she got out. True, since then it has ceased to be myself. All on painkillers. There was one person, but now another. Trouble, in a word. "

Love Home Photo: Kristina Syrchikova for TD

By the way love speaks of the eldest daughter and how he sighs, it is clear that the truth is the trouble. “Well, what already needs to be done,” she says, and switches to the story about the poplar, which fell to their site and broke the barn, and to the floor in the hallway, which buried and failed and which she is going to repair herself.

Savage, biscuits and northern fleet

Love was born sixty years ago in the city of Kanash in Chuvashia. She was the youngest of the seven children of her mother, there was no father. “When I went to school at seven, they took the girls to the dance circle there,” Lyuba recalls. - I was also taken away, but not to the circle. The coach said: “Everyone can dance, and you will play sports,” and took me alone in a sports boarding school to engage in hand -to -hand combat. ”

The next ten years passed in constant competitions. Luba had excellent sports prospects, but at sixteen she received a serious knee injury. It was 1976, Lyuba entered the ten strongest in hand -to -hand combat, the team had to go to America for competitions, even a visa was already made. And then at ordinary regional competitions she got a “savage” in her rivals. “Everyone was afraid of her in the district, she was deaf and mentally retarded, but strong like a bull and fought without rules. I have no idea how she was allowed to competition. Well, she knocked her knee. The meniscus dangled separately. " Lyuba was sent to the hospital, and she spent the next six months in a gypsum. The coach said that in sports she was no longer a place. So her first life ended, sports.

“I left the hospital at 17 and was with nothing. All of mine either went into sports or married, but I have neither education nor experience - nothing, only useless medals, ”Love recalls. - And then the sister says, come on you to the culinary college. I did not understand anything so much that I did not care where to go, and I went to the culinary specialist. Dali Koiko-Mesto in the hostel, and I began to study. ” So Lyuba began a second life, confectionery.

Lyubov and Vita House : Kristina Syrchikova for TD

Lyuba graduated from college, and for good studies she was sent to Cheboksary to work in the confectionery workshop at the Ministry of the Chuvash Republic. “I came there and gasped - everyone was thumping there. Cognac. Boxes. Right during work. Such adult aunts powerful are suitable for a pot of cognac, draw it a cook - and right in the mouth. I was nineteen, then I have not drank at all, and since then I won’t tolerate cognac to the spirit. They also tried to make me drink, but I resisted. It was 1979. "

First, Lyuba “stood” on baking and on the biscuit. Gradually became interested in decorating cakes. She had a good visual memory, she remembered that and how older confectioners do, and trained in her free time. As a result, she began to engage in cakes. I worked there for several years. She got married, gave birth to her daughter Christina.

The husband was a military man, and shortly after the birth of her daughter, the family went near Murmansk, to Gadzhievo. The husband began to serve on the ship. “It was a destroyer with the funny name“ modest, ”Lyuba recalls. - But there was no work in Gadzhieva, and when an announcement came across that a cleaning lady needed a “Yageli” restaurant in the confectionery workshop, I went. I already had the fifth category of the confectioner, but I washed the floors and silently watched how the confectioners worked there. I worked for three months, and then their head of the workshop fell ill, and a wedding cake was urgently needed. The director of the restaurant remembered my fifth category and said: “Well, can you make such a cake?” - "Such - no, better - I can." And I complicated the cake so much that everyone swayed. It was a five -kilogram cake: edges from meringues, antennae and a grid made of white chocolate, also with a beautiful inscription. ”

The more Lyuba talks about her confectionery life, the more he smiles, recalling. And her story is similar to a Hollywood film - about dreams, hard work, happy chance and logical success. The confectionery competition, purchased winners, pre -prepared by favorites of cakes, envious, intrigues, and the second place. Again, hard work, again the competition, again adventures, the search for plates at the last moment and - the first place. Satisfied director, Lyuba becomes a circuit in a restaurant. Vita smiles, listening to his mother's exciting stories, and a small dark room becomes a large bright hall with tables in tablecloths, women in cook caps and huge multi -colored cakes with roses from cream cream.

Vita photo: Kristina Syrechikova for TD

“True, one fine day it all ended,” Lyuba suddenly interrupts herself. - We come with my daughter home in the evening, but half of furniture and there are no equipment, and there is no husband either. Found another, abandoned the service and went to another city. I felt ill with my heart, took me to the hospital. ” So the second life ended Lubin.

In the hospital, love realized that one salary would not survive with his daughter and that I had to return home to Chuvashia. But I met a woman from a neighboring bunk who called her to work on a ship - four women were needed there. And there was his kindergarten for her daughter. Thus began the third life of Luba - on the ship. It was a raid tug that meets submarines. She was watchman. Lyuba’s story again becomes a Hollywood film, only now a militant: with fights (sports childhood helped), adventures, punishments in the guardhouse. Vita completely laughs on her bed, and it’s hard not to do this. “And we have a hob - and they broke all of them, and they had a hob - and weeded us at night, and we bam - and dodged! And they fled to the pier on the boat, and they also drowned their ladder, ” - something like this.

And then Lyuba was visiting her aunt from Sochi and persuaded her to quit “this terrible north and this strange ship” and move to her south. And Lyuba agreed. Thus began her fourth life, southern and confectionery again.

Lyuba lived in Sochi for several years, worked as a master of a confectionery workshop in large hotels - first in the "Lazurnaya", then in the "Pearl". “Even for the Pugacheva cake,” Lyuba is proud. I met Ruslan there and unexpectedly became pregnant.

Vita photo: Kristina Syrechikova for TD

“I was forty -five years old, what a pregnancy! - says Lyuba. - Doctors have long said that I would no longer have children. Imagine my surprise when I understood in the fourth month. But so delighted! When Vita was born, everything was fine at first. I realized that something was wrong, only in a year, when she could not stand and walk. And then I decided to return to Chuvashia, there were relatives in neurology, they promised to help with examinations and rehabilitation. ” So the next life of Lyuba ended and the new one began. Quite heavy.

God will judge

“Doctors in Chuvashia immediately said:“ Write a refusal, ”Lyuba quotes a sad classic. - I answered them: "While he is alive, I will carry her." We did several operations, only eight, put Vita on a walker. I’m an athlete, I trained her all the time, and by nine years she somehow went. But all the time there were problems with the hip joints (dislocations). As a result, one leg is shorter than the other, and after some other operation she no longer walks. And they don’t see his eyes either - one lens is dead, the other eye slightly distinguishes the spots. ”

Now Vit needs another operation: her back is twisted and squeezes the internal organs, which already causes systemic failures in the body. Lyuba hopes that in November they will be able to get to this operation.

In the courtyard of the house of Lyubov and Vita Photo: Kristina Syrchikova for TD

To the question about Father Vita Lyuba makes a gesture with his hand, according to which everything is clear. “Sick children are sharply needed by men. In Sochi, the beach-More-Sweeter-Shashlyk-woman, and here, in Chuvashia, illness, difficulties and not very fun. Witted and I came to him several times, but he looked at us with empty eyes. And he also said such a phrase: "Lyuba, God will judge us." I replied even then: “Ruslan, God forbid, if God will judge us, you will definitely not like it.” Six months later, he went to the hospital - the kidneys refused. And I also persuaded him so that he would not die. Then he asked for forgiveness. True, as soon as he became better, he forgot about us again. And how it became bad - he called again, apologized. No, I don’t need this, we ourselves are somehow here. ”

And they are “somehow themselves” and live. When Christina was discharged from the hospital in Sochi, she also returned to her mother, even on crutches. At first, Lyuba rented an apartment, and four years ago she took a loan and bought this cottage - she is much cheaper than the apartment. Now Christina is washing entrances in Kanash, gets twelve thousand for this, there is still a pension of Vita and Lyuba, and they live on this. And another garden. Recently, a bathhouse was built - social workers from guardianship demanded this, I had to take another loan.

To say that the family is not enough for the family to say nothing. There is no heating in the house - only a wood stove that was blinded from what was. Toilet on the street. “Once I wanted to ask for firewood in the social center, so they told me that I already had two pensions and my daughter’s salary, I live richly.”

Vita's sister takes her to the street photo: Kristina Syrchikova for TD

But recently, they learned about the family in the Ani Chizhova Foundation in Cheboksary. And life has become a little easier. “Three women arrived and say - what is needed? I say - firewood. They brought firewood. The social driver helped to take Vita to the hospital. Then they brought a functional bed - Christina gathered her with the driver: after she fell, she had strange new skills, she began to collect and repair everything well. Then here the TV - they took and presented for the New Year. I remember we sat and looked him - more precisely, we could not get enough of it. In general, amazing girls work there, they are so kind and soothe all the time, and you can always seek advice and information. They also help with documents to get an apartment. ”

Fifteen years later, in line for the apartment (relies on a child with disabilities), they finally issued a certificate. There is a fixed amount in which you need to meet and buy housing. Lyuba searched for a long time and found an apartment in Kanash on the ground floor. “There is a large corridor and there are no doors, there Vita can move in a stroller,” Lyuba rejoices. - When paperwork ends, the Ani Chizhova Foundation also helps, we can move. I want to leave the cottage and live here in the summer. Vita likes it when she is taken to the garden, to fresh air. Yes, and the garden is needed on the farm. I plant Vita in a stroller in a greenhouse, and I work myself. ”

Vita speaks a little. A teacher from Kanash comes to her twice a week, but when the weather or a lot of snow, he does not come. Vita for home schooling, the fifth grade has now begun. When the family moves to the apartment, it will become easier to live in every sense-and civilization is nearby, and the environment is still more affordable for the stroller than the mud roads of the garden partnership.

“So, the operation is Vita, the move - and we will heal,” says Lyuba. - Oh, no, Christine still needs an operation: she has twelve titanium pins in the spine, they are already shattered, we need to make a correction. And there are still three years to pay loans, and then we will definitely heal. The main thing is to live. "

In the courtyard of the house of Lyubov and Vita Photo: Kristina Syrchikova for TD

Indeed, it is scary to think about what will become with Vita and Christina without her mother. Neither trauma, nor betrayal, nor different troubles have yet broken Lyuba, but how much strength can one person have? “It’s good that there are people like in the Ani Chizhova Foundation, and we will somehow stretch, yes, Vita?”

“Anya Chizhova, yes,” says Vita with a smile.

Chuvashia is one of the poorest regions of the country, and many help here. The Ani Chizhova fund has been working since 2016 and has already helped more than 200 families with incurably sick children. The Fund solves housing issues (providing apartments out of turn through the court of apartments), provides children with expensive special nutrition and necessary medicines, equips an affordable environment and so on. Money is needed to rent an office in Cheboksary and the work of a field palliative service, whose employees get to the most remote corners of the republic. As, for example, to the country to Lyuba.

We have to collect a little more than 100 thousand rubles. Let's try to close this collection as soon as possible! Even your little donation is an important contribution. The fund will be able to continue to help such families, and Lube, Vita and Christine will live a little easier.