Daniel Vinogradov (the name changed at his request) agreed to talk about adolescence drug addiction. He is 21 years old, he already knows what it is: he spent 9 months in a rehabilitation drug center, and now he serves in the monastery.

- You led an anonymous blog about your life. In one of the posts he wrote that you were taken to an orphanage when you were 4 years old. What caused?
- It was a set of factors. My parents drank. We drank a lot and every day. Mom was a milkmaid, dad’s tractor driver. It is easy to understand that there was very little money, and all of them merged for the most part for alcohol. We lived in Tikhvin - a small provincial town, so drinking and biting was the only entertainment not only for my parents.
My biological mom and dad practically did not devote time to me, and I became a homeless manner. Just like Tom Sawyer, only younger.
He stole in stores in the three years, was hanging on the sleepers. There was a case when a huge batch of Coca-Cola in glass bottles was brought into the city by train. My friend and I secretly made our way into the open car, where there were hundreds of cola packages, pulled a couple from there, and I broke one bottle and cut my hand heavily. They even drove sewing. Now I have a scar - marking for life.
- Was it better in the Tikhvin orphanage than in his native?
- The orphanage lived better than many families I knew about. In the orphanage, stably three times a day, we ate normally, walked a lot around the territory, we had music and drawing, labor lessons. For example, I loved to make all sorts of wood crafts. It’s a pity, not a single one has been preserved.
- How did you end up in Moscow?
- Before I started living in Moscow, I visited three more families. Everyone in the end refused me.
Lyudmila (the name changed)-my last adoptive mother, worked in the social bodies to protect children, she came to our orphanage for some meeting, and as a result she took me Moscow.
When I arrived at the new house - and, for a minute, he was on Tverskaya - the difference between the old and the new life struck me on the spot. I actually spent my childhood in the village, and then I settled in the very center of Moscow. For me it was a shock, at twelve years old.
- Your first drug. What was it?
- Grass. This was my first year of life in Moscow.
“You were still a boy.” How did you manage?
- A case of chance. But this story showed me how much drugs are available.
I had a company of older friends. We often walked in the yard together, with them I tried my first alcohol. Once, when we were pointlessly staggering in autumn Moscow, my friend from the company started us in some kind of lane, where he took out a small bag with something. I could not even imagine what it was. So this happened. I did not know that it was a drug. It was already 8 pm. I had to return to the adopted mother. And it was on the way home that took me. The head is spinning, thoughts are confused, the legs are cotton. It seemed that I was walking infinitely, although the road to the house took only 10 minutes. When he reached the apartment, he just collapsed to sleep.
- What happened after?
- The same guys from the company told me about pills. On the same day, I went for bookmarks. And the worst thing - I bought all this with the money that my foster mother gave me to new sneakers. After that, my life turned 180 degrees. Almost every day I spent all my pocket money on “nonsense”. Therefore, I remember my 13-16 years very vaguely. Just at this time, I began to sell illegal substances.
- How did this happen?
- Everything is very simple. Found vacancies on the Internet. At first he was a nuclear (courier). In Moscow, in the subway, he could carry from one to five kg of drugs of all types. They paid twice a month - for me then it was fabulous money. So I worked for almost 4 months, and then I was "raised". I came to an abandoned factory next to the Moscow Ring Road, they had a base there. The room in which the so -called managers sat was tiny. Neither light nor heating, so as not to attract attention. Many were spent the night there. But being a manager is many times safer than courier. You do not need to go anywhere, you do not meet with the police and so on.
The main task of the manager is to meet couriers, give them weight and control their location during the day. In the case of “Palevo” ( opening the courier by the police. - A.M. ) the base closes, all data from computers and phones are erased, managers leave the base with the remaining drugs.
- And where do the drugs that the managers remain left?
- Usually there are not so many of them, 2-3 kg maximum, the rest are given to the couriers. This is done specifically so that in the case of Palevo, managers can quickly dump from the place, and the remaining to scatter in the nearest entrances.
- How much did you pay after promotion?
- For me - a lot. When I started to receive that kind of money at 16, my roof was torn off. Just at this age, I tried severe drugs.
- What was your further plan?
- I got into drugs. They have become more important to me than the future. He left the house, lived with a friend.
Since I was not 18 years old, I could not even rent an apartment for myself. He worked at the base during the day, in the night he was injected. He slept for 2-4 hours and again rode to the base.
Therefore, what plans for the future could be discussed at all ...
- How did you get? And how did this affect what you tied?
- Once I replaced the senior noden (already holding the position of manager). I remember everything to the smallest details. Winter, January, I leave the metro on Krasnoselskaya. Everything was as usual, I could not even think that my tail was behind me. I come to the courtyard, where it was necessary to scatter the remaining bookmarks, leave one and see, two policemen come to me. I was taken to the department, called the adoptive mother. They could put it, but thanks to her connections, I escaped with accounting for the police ( it remains registered until 2025. - A. M. ), and a week after that I was sent to the clinic for drug addicts.
- How was the recovery?
- The first three months were very difficult. I was literally retrained to live. Daily work with psychotherapists, neurologists and narcologists. I did not go beyond the territory of the clinic for almost 9 months. Mom did not abandon me and visited every two days, brought food, books. By the way, I read most of all school literature in the hospital. Probably, it was the books that pushed me to tie. I was surprised that the fate of literary heroes are so interesting. I liked to plunge into a fictional world, because it replaced the reality in which I was under the influence of drugs.
- In 2018, you left the hospital. At that time you were already 18 years old. Have you returned to drugs or started life again?
- I have been clean for almost 4 years, I have not consumed. After leaving the hospital, I took the documents from the college and went to work at Helikon-Oper, my mother attached me there. At first it was unusual, I did not earn at all, played secondary roles, looked at professionals and gained experience. After six months of part -time jobs in Helicon, our director recommended me as an actor to his acquaintance screenwriter to shoot social short films. I agreed.
- What are you doing now?
- I managed to play a monk in the motorcades. To completely get used to the image, I was connected with one priest from the Volga courtyard, he invited me to him for a couple of days. Returning from the Ivanovo region, I played my last role and went to the monastery.
- Why did you decide to go there?
- I liked life, nature ... In addition to everything else, they periodically send drug addictive adolescents to the monastery at the Volga Compound. I realized that this is my place. I realized that I could help go through a difficult way to restore the same guys like me. There was just a feeling that this was a purpose.
- After going this path, what advice would you give those who are now facing your choice?
- We have one life. To break her, one day is enough. And to fix it, years are needed. Therefore, no matter how trite, first think, and then do it. I was lucky. But sometimes the consequences can be irreversible.
Yuri Frolov
Associate Professor of the Faculty of Psychology of Moscow State University Lomonosov
- Stable once a month I have 2-3 teenagers who are faced with drug addiction. And it’s even good that they initially come to me - to a psychologist, and do not go by coincidence to the colony. The reasons for use are undoubtedly a lot, but the main thing is the lack of love. Often these are children from incomplete families, orphanages, from families where parents also have addictions, which is why they cannot find a common language with the child. The main task in such cases is not to wait for love from relatives, but to teach a teenager to love himself. I have been doing this for 35 years.
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