
Photo: Yuri Kozyrev / "New Gazeta"
Yura Kozyrev and I were going to live inside a neuropsychiatric boarding school - PNI - two weeks.
Nyuta Federmeser lived in the boarding school for 9 days.
Nyuta decided to prepare me.
We met in St. Petersburg and went to one of the stumps.
In St. Petersburg - the largest PNI in Russia.
It was a female stump. 700 women lived in it. These women live there all their lives without seeing men, because it is easier to support them.
But no abortion and sterilizations should be done. There is no need to issue gaskets for painting and check if there is blood on the gaskets (this is done in the PNI where I lived).
The right to relationships, love, sex for these people is not recognized. People can simply be kept as heterosexual animals, separately from each other.
We were met by the director. Beautiful, alive. She smiled all the time and wanted to drink us with tea, but Nyuta said that she wanted to see those who live in PNI.
We walked along the corridors, and the director paid our attention to the paintings and applications on the walls.
I asked the director - how many smokers are there?
The director did not understand.
I asked - which of the women smokes?
And the director said:
“Nobody smokes here. As Vladimir Vladimirovich said about the fight against smoking, everyone was thrown in one week. We are very grateful to us now. ”

Nyuta turned from the corridor and went into the ward. On the bed by the door lay a shaved old woman. I have never seen elderly women shaved, but I will see, yes, I will see. Nyuta took a step, and a young woman with a restless face looked out from behind the director-the head of the department and the old woman.
“She doesn't talk,” the woman said. - Unable to communicate. Let's choose another.
- What is her name?
“Nadezhda S.,” the woman said, looking out the door for a second. There was a leaf on the door with the names of those who are contained in this room.
- And by patronymic?
- It seems, Alexandrovna.
Nyuta greeted and sat on the edge of the bed. The director, the head and several employees remained at the door.
- How are you, Nadezhda Alexandrovna?
The old woman nodded. She moved her lips, Nyuta leaned toward her lips.
The old woman said: "Good."
Nyuta carefully took her hand. The old woman squeezed her fingers. She looked at Nyuta. I stood nearby and saw my eyes slowly focused on her face, clarified.
The old woman tried to rise, Nyuta pulled her pillows.
- Are you getting up?
- No.
- Do you help you go outside?
“I don’t go,” said the old woman and looked at the director.
- Do you know what time of year now?
- No.
“Now winter,” says Nyuta. - Do you love winter?
- I love. I love snow.
- He is cold and melting, right? - says Nyuta. “It's nice to squeeze him.”
- He's white.
Nyuta turns to the door. Says: Bring the snow.
- What? - says the head.
Nyuta says: Snow.
The rustle at the door, one of the nannies runs away.
“Have you been living here for a long time?” - asks Nyuta.
“I don't know,” said the old woman. - For a long time.
- And before that where they lived?
- I lived with my husband before. We lived well, he loved me very much.
- And what did he call you?
- Love.
- How beautifully he said.
“He did not say that,” says the old woman. - This is my name. Love.
Nyuta turns back and looks at the director. The director looks at the head. The manager says: “Well, I was mistaken, sorry. There are several names on the door. "
The nurse is running a bowl with snow, the director rushes it.
Nyuta puts a bowl on the bed, love lowering his fingers in them. Squeezes.
- Cold? - says Nyuta.
“It's cold,” says Love.
We go to the next room. And the next. We spend five hours in PNI.

Then we go to drink tea with the director. The director is glad that the “excursion” is over.
Nyuta says: "I see, it's hard for you."
The director nods and stops smiling. He says: "It's good that you see us as it is."
- If you could change the system? Whatever you like?
“And you can convey to? .. Well? ..” says the director.
- I will try very much.
- Look, while they live in a boarding school, we manage their money. And then they die, and their money goes to the relatives who threw it, or into the treasury. But this is unfairly arranged with their money!
- And how would you arrange?
“It is necessary that the money in the boarding school remains,” says the director. “Everyone thinks so, all the staff.” You will bring to, well, people, Anna Konstantinovna?
Nyuta says: “Of course. We’ll talk to you many times. ”
We go out, night, snow falls. I smoke and think that I can smoke. That I have a name. What they talk to me. That I belong to myself now, right now, I’ll get into the car and leave.
Nyuta says: “This director is their guardian. You have seven hundred women under guardianship and you do not know their names. It is not necessary for you. "
- How do you talk to her at all?
“I'm talking to people, Lena, and you are talking to people.” Yes? It is necessary to change systematically, the system, this is not alone. People will help us. She will help us.

Nyuta fights for the law on distributed guardianship. This law makes it so that you no longer belong to the director of the boarding school. Relatives will still be your relatives, and will not refuse you if they cannot take care of you. They can come to you, they can take you with them.
Human rights activists can be your guardians. NKO. Different guardians will control each other. And human rights will remain in an incompetent person.
This will open the way to the accompanied living - life outside the boarding school, but with support.
Nyuta really talks to everyone. Her position in the Popular Front allows her to go to any boarding school. Together with the Nizhny Novgorod governor, she created a service to protect people's rights with mental disorders. This service, unacceptable to any ministry who has the right to go to all boarding schools, hospitals, dispensaries.
For two years of her work, the service opened 4870 cases, helped 3894 people.
What is happening now.
Now, when our rights are reduced every day, the law “On Psychiatric Assistance” is being reviewed. Today the second reading will take place. After he was accepted, the activities of the Nizhny Novgorod service and the like (the regions were preparing to adopt experience) will be outlawed. The possibility of distributed custody and accompanied residence outside the walls of the boarding school is excluded. A temporary exit beyond the wall of the boarding school - by decision of the director, which cannot be appealed.
Which is not prohibited by the new version of the law -
Bind, isolate, not let people outside, select a cell phone or any thing. Shave the hollow. Sterilize if you get pregnant. Get choking if you raise a voice. Keep locked up to death. Make the snow forget.

Nyuta came to a meeting of the State Duma Committee with photographs of tied, binded people. With 40 thousand signatures of those who believed that a person is equal to a person.
Voting deputies recalled that the amendments supported the GPU-the state-legal department of the President of the Russian Federation.
Before the vote, Nyuta asked that it would not be unanimous - "for the sake of decency."
They voted unanimously.
Nyuta burst into tears and said: "My tears are shame for you."
The deputies asked Nyuta to behave decently.