An illustration of the moments of life lining up in a continuous heart rhythm drew Midjourney neural network We publish the story of a modelist writer, artist Sergei Solovyov about the search for spiritual truth among Indian jungle, Munich streets and Moscow clubs. The author accompanies artistic reading saturated with images with artistic reading, reproducing the flow of consciousness about the illusoryness of thinking, the experience of depression and moments of genuine intimacy with life.