This morning Vara became really sorry that the one, the same, could no longer be returned. It became sorry for himself. As if once having been silent, never to speak. / Illustrations: Anastasia M Thirty-year-old Varya was used to answering in silence to what was happening in her life, which she considered an absurd mistake-to the violence of an alcoholic father in childhood, conflict situations at school, rudeness of colleagues and neighbors, state prohibitions and even dicks.