Do not assign someone else's tragedy

This text is probably required by a certain number of disclaimers.

This season there is no more popular clothing than a white coat, but I try to put on something less marked as much as possible. Today is a special day, but then let it be at least an openwork cap in sequins. And yes, I know that it is better to see a savory spit on white, so do not hesitate, I will put it in the urn anyway.
I absolutely do not support what is happening in Ukraine, and I am sure that those who lead my country made a very big mistake back in 2014.
No, I do not think (as those with whom I poked in absentia) that “something is wrong” with the regime became on the morning of February 24. The illusions of people reading news should have dispelled on May 6, 2012 , if not earlier.
And finally, what we gathered here: I know that I did not act too elegant, having written many tweet that collective Russian liberals behave absolutely in a way, rooting for the Ukrainian contrast, as for a football team, but I do not refuse my words.

Thanks to the editors of the "cold" for offering to develop the thought, it is simple. They drove.

The other day I talked for my podcast with the artist Ptrk, known at least by a stencil with a coin and Patriarch Kirill. He said that just those acquaintances, whose knowledge of Russian reality, was limited at best, “ the story of a guy from the“ Medusa ”, who seemed to be thrown,” woke up on February 24 with the feeling that the world had collapsed, and cynical and cruel people settled in the Kremlin. While the glory itself, which I quote: “For 12 years have been pushing at rallies,” has not experienced anything like that and, rather, plunged into reflection.

I understand those who cling to all the poster and understandable, and skeptically belong to those who joined them, although in the early 2000s I helped to build the statehood that we have. Nevertheless, I am always for reflection.

She, reflection, may be rude or seem stupid from the outside, but a “complex position” always seems more humane to me. You are your solutions and your biography. It is painful and unpleasant to reflect. There are a lot of two -dimensional positions around, from which you will be happy to plow you.

I understand very well a stable flaming from the public and garbage telegram channels Ilya Krasilshchik, when he writes that he envies the Ukrainians. He explains that they envy their morality - they have understandable tasks, goals, feelings - and we all died here and "from us is a cadaverous smell." I do not agree with the second part (in the same country there were always PTRK glory, and the NGOs, and the mass of other indifferent people who have not disappeared), but I unambiguously welcome Ilya's reflection and even apologize to him here for the abandoned in the hearts “you went fuck” in response to a “failed nation” column . He reflects, does not want deaths and does not multiply them. This is better than the opposite, so here is only support.

Ukrainians, from a moral point of view, are really easier than Russians: they are on their land, they have a clear image of the enemy and the future for which they are fighting. All moral dilemmas and moral problems that I think will arise later are their moral problems and dilemmas, let's focus on our own.

And their own are very, very difficult. Especially when you are formally “on the side of the good”, it seems to you necessary to seize the Ukrainian army, and you rejoice at the next burned Pazik with Rosgvardists and executed on the approaches to the raisins of contractors. I have news for you: it is not us that we shoot Russian soldiers - these are people who protect their territories and risk their lives, but the soldiers just happened, our fellow citizens.

And no, this is not about “love us with black”, but about the effort to comprehend the tragedy that happened to your country. Yes, seductively appropriate a stranger, Ukrainian, but we have our own.

When we, being the owners of a red passport, write: “At least not to jinx it, let everything work out”, reading the news about taking raisins by Ukrainian troops - we seem to ignore all the texts that the great Vladimir Sevrinovsky writes - about Dagestanis and Tuvans who are being made for slaughter, poverty, false ideas about ideals (and they are always false, if they need them. Alien blood), about conscripts , who were forcibly transferred to a contract and sent to fight. We are depersonalized by the inhabitants of Belgorod, explaining that they ourselves are to blame for the fact that they live near the military infrastructure, but if a couple of ranges from Putin airfields from Himars, then no peaceful zombies will suffer, as military experts from Tbilisi argue, and leading to the last plan that are really responsible for what is happening. Oleg Kashin is right (you can not read further), saying that all the crimes that occur today are committed within the framework of one large. So let's talk about him and call a spade a spade.

There are no good filtration camps, there are no fairly shot knees during interrogations, there are no properly mined civil objects and there is no humane death penalty. I do not sympathize with everyone and everyone, I am not the mother of Teresa and I do not pretend to be a conscience of the nation, but it seems to me normal to feel just what is happening from everything that is happening, like and what is there, anger at those who started all this, who generally put me in a situation in which I write a column in “cold” about mass deaths in Ukraine.

The lack of reflection is formulated in the teasing “yes,“ not everything is so unambiguous ””, which are customary to break those who are trying to talk about what is happening without the help of posters. It is in this, and not at all in the rejection of collective guilt, I see attempts to avoid responsibility. But the war is not a football match, but life is not a “witcher” game, where the use of one potion neutralizes the action of another. There is nothing good in the death of Russians - any. As there is nothing good in our tanks near Kharkov. Alexey Navalny behind bars is bad and unfair. And it is bad that his associates turn into cannibalists similar to their opponents, transferring the lists of Russian teachers to the SBU ( the “Alliance of Teachers” in VKontakte wrote that the trade union “helped to receive” these data of the world press and the SBU. - approx. “Cold” ).

The optics, against which I speak here, very quickly leads empathic people, advocates of humanitarian knowledge, to cannibalic conclusions. For example, that the inhabitants of Artsakh themselves are to blame for bombed villages, because Pashinyan collaborates with Putin; that Erdogan does not have the murder of the Kurds, but his; That, in the end, there are those who do not have to kill, but there are those whom it seems to be possible.

Yes, Ukrainians are now not up to reflection: they are facing survival issues, but it’s time for her to deal with it. It would be better, of course, it would be better to be conventional to us (and who are these “we”? Those who spat on the news?) Less admire these 8, 12, 20 years, but since the moment is passed, then at least now.

Everything is bad, the future is unclear, and the only strategy that we have is very simple: do not disappear ourselves, not to make evil to others, not to become a cannibal. But we will not cope even with this, if we continue to replace the reflection with self -love.

Now I take off the white Cape and, as promised, send it to the urn. Still, for white now is not a season.

The author’s opinion may not coincide with the opinion of the editorial office.

Do not assign someone else's tragedy

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