“All life is one permanent“ need ”

04–08.03

The New Times continues to post the history of a person who has a deadly diagnosis*

There are not many things in the world that temper the character as chemotherapy does. In life, one has to deal with such things that you can only say to yourself: "It is necessary." All chemotherapy, and the whole life between, is often one permanent “necessary” and nothing more.

Yes, at least take me: on the second introduction of Brentuximab, one of the possible unpleasant side effects happened to me - a spasm of the pectoral muscles. For minutes I could not breathe, because the muscles of the chest contracted and did not allow me to deal with the lungs. Doctors fought to bring me back to life, and I struggled not to lose consciousness completely. God forbid someone else to experience this.

After I was pumped out, I was lying without strength, I was beaten with chills, my temperature jumped up ... But a dropper with a drug that had to be administered to be administered nearby. The doctors did not put pressure on me, after some time the nurse came in and simply and everydayly asked: “Well, we continue Brentuximab?” And I answered her: "Yes, what to pull." In this sense, I was very simple-I was helped out by knowledge: yes, an hour ago I almost suffocated because of this drug, but if you don’t drip it further, I will die. With the same knowledge, cancer patients come to the next chemotherapy, after which the head hurts, sick, wild, simply indescribable weakness develops, hair falls out.

We must eat, although he is sick. We must write an article, although the head hurts. It is necessary to prepare a request to the city hall, although they can hardly consider it essentially. People who do not have such experience are much more complicated in life: it seems that they need to go to work, but I don’t want to. Of course, you need to write a report, but you can postpone it for tomorrow.

They say that after the Great Patriotic War, the destroyed front -line soldiers pulled out the destroyed economy and economy in many ways: real, painful, putting war on the brink of survival, like cancer, brings up respect for the word “necessary”. Is it possible to learn this, not crippling life?

It would be great ...

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